Wesley Woods had just got back from a 12 hour filming session with a guy, a girl and a transgender girl. They’d spent the whole day and night fucking each other, and Wes video called me from the bathtub after the five hour drive from Las Vegas to Los Angeles. He’d slept two hours but was on sparkling form as always.

Danny Polaris: So Wes, that group scene sounds intense!

Wesley Woods: It was intense for a lot of different reasons, I didn’t even leave Vegas until 1am. I thanked Ella Nova afterwards, for allowing me to spend time around her vagina because I felt like I had learned way more about the anatomy of another human than I had previously known.

DP: What’s it like fucking a girl for the first time?

WW: This wasn’t the first time I’ve had sex with a woman’s vagina; I’ve had experiences, nothing like that of what I’ve had with men, but, work is work and that’s what I love about my job, the endless possibilities.

It’s kinda like a game for me, challenging myself, my comfort levels, actively processing while pounding… having sex with a girl, trans girl and guy, all at once, is taking things pretty far for me. In my head I’m giggling, excited, thinking “I can’t believe I’m doing this!”

I think, rethink and overthink. I feel like I do with a lot of things. In that moment it was more about allowing myself to relax. I found my brain jumping all over the place. It’s a woman, it’s how we’ve all been created, from the act of which I was doing. But minus the cameras, not everyone was conceived with cameras rolling.

To literally be inside an organ that, (a) I’m very unfamiliar with and (b) thinking “this is where people come from!” It was exciting, at times funny and beautiful. it was honest.

I’m used to putting dicks in my mouth. it’s just a dick, you suck it and move on. Dicks like to get hard and get off. But with a vagina, I was not really sure how to treat one, because it’s really unfamiliar for me to know how to treat one. So I listened and did as I was told.

DP: You’ve been doing a wider range of bi and trans porn recently?

WW: Yeah it’s wild! I never thought I’d be so comfortable living as bold and OUT as I do. My love for my transgender friends and our current political climate has lead me to creating a wider range to allow more people to enjoy.

I just wish to be used, somehow, somewhere in someone’s fantasy- regardless of the style of porn.

Through porn I’ve be able to explore a side of myself that many don’t, and it has literally allowed me to do this while being in front of people. That’s what excites me… putting myself in a room full of people and having to control and silence my mind in order to create a feeling, an emotion, to climax. It’s art. I’m an artist. That’s how I see the world, now.

I’m no longer interested in what’s mainstream, I’m interested in growth through human experiences and living life as a sex worker definitely allows for that opportunity.

I try and interact with my fans as much as possible. It’s these people who make me want to do more, be more, live louder, live braver. My inbox is flooded with people searching for peace, acceptance and an understanding of who they are. They want to feel, “normal.” We aren’t allowing people to have a fulfilled human experience when we are limiting, shaming or neglecting sex and or our own sexualities.

Not everything I do in front of a camera I’m “into,” but I’m comfortable doing it because I know it isn’t about me. It’s for the viewer and for the individual who does relate to what I’m creating. it’s for them. The world will make you feel weird, I just want you to feel weird with me.

DP: So you’re in the bath right now…

WW: Yeah, it’s a ritual for me to have a bath after a long day. I literally went straight from the scene to the car. I got fucked by a transgender girl last night too, Natalie Mars, that was a first! It was quite a night. There was a moment where we were genuinely smiling and laughing while her cock was inside me. it’s a moment I’ll remember because it felt safe. So yeah.. I like to shower, take a bath and reflect on the day.  

DP: So what do you like about having a bath?

WW: Growing up my step-dad would always take baths, he’s one of those rugged, rough and tough cowboys, but every night after he’s done doing cowboy stuff, he always takes a bath. The entire family knows how important bath time is for Dad. It became a joke. But, now I totally get it. I feel like a good epsom salt bath is good for replenishing my body, it’s a good way to be good to it. You need to take some time to sit in the goddamn water and just stretch a little bit. Relax.

You better also take some time to shower before you get in the tub, because I don’t want your nasty butt crack juice all over me. You need to leave that in the shower.

DP: Right, OK, I’ll be sure to remember that! *laughs*

Shifting gear a bit now, there’s something else I wanted us to talk about. You got attacked in the Autumn of last year. How are you dealing with the impact of that?

WW: I am mentally and emotionally still working through some weirdness I have around public spaces and people. I know it’s a process and I’ve mentally prepared myself for the journey.

The scar tissue in my lip is not only sensitive, sometimes painful, but also a new insecurity I’m learning to deal with and process through. I’m extremely lucky to have the support of my friends, family, fans and I have been shown love by so many others who never even knew me before the incident.

It’s truly a beautiful feeling having strangers take time out of their lives to send words of encouragement and love. We all need them, regardless of who or what we are or aren’t. I’m taking it a day at a time.

I can’t say physical actions are always needed, but I definitely believe that when it is the last means, you better believe I’ll act like a deranged country critter and come at you with everything I have. And, I encourage others to be prepared to do the same.

DP: You’ve had problems with anger in the past, how did this manifest itself? What happened, and how are you dealing with these issues now?

WW: I joke a lot about taking a group anger management class every Monday night in LA, but in actuality it has really helped me form an idea of what was really happening, away from the anger I would project. What I discovered was that I didn’t have an, “anger problem,” what I had a problem with was expressing myself, my emotions and setting proper boundaries, accurately, through words.

All my insecurities of who I was and the resentment I had toward people telling me I wasn’t right or good enough would eventually lead to the powerless feeling of anger and rage. I would sit so uncomfortably in my own skin, fearful of communicating my needs, wants, desires. I was unable to be vulnerable and allow others in.

Drinking socially at bars and events became a way for me to silence my insecurities. Alcohol and nightlife became how I’d slip away for a few hours to escape any real issues I was experiencing. The anxiety, loneliness and depression. It didn’t and doesn’t work. I’m an extremist. I do everything in life extra, and in this area of life my extremist tendencies caused more problems.

I’ve spent time actively working towards bettering myself, for myself, so I may be better for myself and  others. What I’ve discovered is the power of thoughts and words. Sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will create your world.

Being honest with yourself and allowing yourself to feel emotions and ask yourself, why you feel that way will eventually lead you to the real root of the problem. I constantly remind myself “this is all an ego test.” I truly believe happiness is removing yourself from whatever “negative” situation you’re in and realising it isn’t about you.  

Part 2 of this feature interview with Wesley Woods will be published over the weekend, so look out for more!

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